Poetry by Farah Lawal Harris

New Year’s Resolutions


i resolve
to be a woman.
i will not swoon from being called “beautiful.”
all i need to do is look in the mirror and it shows.
tell me something i don’t know.

i resolve to be a woman,
to let my “yes” be yes
and my “no” be no
and my “no” be “hell no”
if the hearer doesn’t show
thst they hear me
because i’ll be
a woman,
not a girl who acts without thinking
and who speaks without listening.

i resolve to be a woman,
one with estrogen and ovaries,
but i resolve
to grow a pair of balls,
both heavy and hairy
so that i will not choose to sit still
just because the future is scary.

i resolve
to resolve.
i resolve
to be.
i resolve to be a woman,
to be myself,
to be honest,
to be genuine,
to laugh loudly,
to cry fully,
to live with my suffering
because it’s part of being the woman
i resolve to be.

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9 responses

  1. It sounds like your balls are almost full-grown!

    Best wishes.

    January 2, 2009 at 5:49 am

  2. pearl, this one is beautiful. i was always jealous at women for they have those nice tits but a pair of balls is also nice play with. enjoy.
    also, i have noticed while reading your poetry (and other females around) that there is a constant ‘complain’ (i am not sure about the correct word now) about man, the way ‘we’ look at ‘you’, listen to you and generally acting. maybe i don’t have enough self awareness, but i have never seem to see myself in this light. yet it seems that all men are like that in some way…
    happy new year and good luck with your resolutions
    dhyan

    January 2, 2009 at 8:34 am

  3. @ Domino: Thanks!

    @ Dhyan: Lol, thank you, not only for your comment but your male perspective. I understand what you mean by calling it a “complain”. I think a lot of the frustration comes from women and men operating and communicating differently. You probably aren’t lacking in self-awareness, but even with that, you won’t have the same awareness as a woman from her perspective 🙂 Happy new year to you too!

    January 2, 2009 at 3:42 pm

  4. Yesterday I saw a site on WordPress that was devoted to nothing but elaborately spun fantasies about sadistically murdering beautiful women. Then I saw another site that said that all single mothers are gold-digging bitches with disgusting vaginas and that no man should ever date or marry them. Then I saw another site where a sex-therapist was defending mens’ right to follow women around taking pictures of their genitalia on the street.

    If these pages attacked and denigrated any other group this way — they would be deleted — but because they attack women they are tolerated.

    Hatred towards women is so ordinary, so normalized, people don’t see it, and if they do, they don’t react to it.

    January 2, 2009 at 5:11 pm

  5. pearl, those diffrent precpective makes wars. but in some socities around the world, people came with some ways to lower down the risk, i am not sure why in our open western socity still this is such a big couse for misundertanding. some how women (and men of course) keep expecting sopmething which they cannot get, even after expriancing it and understanding that.
    this is one strong reason why i enjoy reading your poetry, you seem to show your (women) side a lot. i enjoy that much.

    domino – some how i am always surprise from that view. many (girl) friends tells me things around that line. i guess there are some things you have to be in order to understand. and not to say anything but… could it be that much of it is women creation???

    January 2, 2009 at 6:49 pm

  6. That depends. By “creation” do you mean “figment of the imagination”?

    January 2, 2009 at 7:48 pm

  7. i am not sure if i would use this word but.. mm.. something not far from that. is it possiable a woman feels that a man is eyeing her while he is not? not in that sexual sense or any sense for that matter.

    January 3, 2009 at 7:31 am

  8. Well, then my answer is pretty simple: No.

    January 3, 2009 at 6:54 pm

  9. then i will simply accept it

    January 3, 2009 at 9:56 pm

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